Bhakti Song 26 – I Surrendered

கையளித்தேன்

 

கடந்த காலம் திரும்பிடாது

கருத்தில் கொண்டேன்

கடந்துபோகும் உலகத்தின்

வேஷம் கண்டேன்

கண்டகாட்சி கொண்டகோலம்

கடிதில் மறைய

கணப்பொழுதும் கையளிக்கேன்

மாயைக்கென்னை

எதிர்காலம் எப்படியோ

என்ற எண்ணம்

என்னுள்ளே என்றென்றும்

அலையாய் மோத

என்திறனை முற்றாகச்

சார்ந்தே நிற்க

இழந்தேனே இன்றுள்ள

அமைதி தன்னை

இறந்தகாலம் எதிர்காலம்

இரண்டையுமே

இன்றே கையளித்தேன்

இறைவன் பாதம்

இமைப்பொழுதில் என்னுள்ளம்

மகிழ்ந்து ஆங்கே

ஏற்றிப் புகழ்ந்தது

அவனின் நாமம்!

 

English Translation

I know that the

Past will never return back

I realized the transit nature

Of the world

All that we see and the way we act

Will disappear suddenly

I will never submit myself

To the maya even for a moment

The question about

The future

Always roar like wave

Within me

As I depend upon

My own strength

I lost the peace

That I have today

So I surrendered

Both the past and future

At the feet of God

Immediately my heart

Felt immense joy

And began to sing

His glory

 

Comments

Our anxiety about the future will never solve the imagined problem that we might face in future but will rob our present peace of mind. Similarly, the failures of the past never disappear from our mind. Though we heard the saying that ‘God not only forgave our sin but will never remember it again, He threw them in deep water and put up a sign “No more fishing”.’ But the reality of human life is that we can’t forget our past or overcome our anxiety about the future. Though we have intellectual understanding about our faith in God we need to put it into practice by trusting Him. To explain the difference between ‘faith’ and ‘trust’ I used to say, ‘I know you can drive the car very safely. Yet only when I trust you, I will sit in it’. As Dr. Hoefer said, ‘Faith as a relationship established by God and trust as our response to that relationship. Hope develops out of that relationship of trust.’ And for me bhakti covers both faith and trust in one word.

 

The following points by Bailey helped me this in perspective:

…Faith in the New Testament has three major components: intellectual assent, a daily walk of trust and obedience. […]

…faith is something we do….Paul clarifies this understanding of faith when he writes: “Whatsoever is not of faith is sin” (Rom 14:23 KJV). We expect him to say “whatsoever is not of faith is unbelief.” But for Paul the opposite of faith is sin because his understanding of faith includes obedience. Clearly, the opposite of obedience is sin. Paul can talk about “the obedience of faith” because for him the two words are almost interchangeable. I believe I should write this chapter and am now doing so. My belief is authentic in that I am acting upon it. (p.166)

 …The widow of Zarephath does not say, “This prophet is talking nonsense. His god, Yahweh, cannot help me in Baal’s country.” Such a statement would be a refusal of the intellectual assent component of faith. Nor does she say, “I believe your god can help me, but to give you this last loaf of bread is unthinkable.” To say that would be to grant intellectual assent but refuse the daily walk of trust and obedience. Instead, she grants that Yahweh has power in Baal’s territory. She also obeys the prophet’s command and is willing to trust the God of Israel for tomorrow. She combines intellectual assent, obedience and trust.—Kenneth E. Bailey, Jesus Through Middle Eastern Eyes: Cultural Studies in the Gospels, Illinois, IVP Academic, 2008, pp.166-67